Carrie's Blog: A look at how I'm living now

BILOXI, MS (WLOX) - This is what I wrote on November 19, 2009: "My weight loss journey is far from over. I still want to lose another 30 pounds."

In the almost two years which have elapsed since I wrote that sentence, I stand by my words, but honestly, I want to lose more weight, partly because I 'found' some of the 'lost' weight again.

I lost about 40 pounds through the summer and fall of 2009. I hate that I put back on about 20 pounds, but that's life, especially when you're not living a healthy lifestyle. I wasn't working our regularly, and I certainly wasn't eating right (or writing down what I was eating).

I do think, sometimes, you need to let yourself just be. You also just have to know when to check yourself and get yourself back on track.

I am still glad that I didn't put ALL the weight back on, and I am back down another 10 pounds. So, I'm close to getting back to where I was. This loss was the result a diet change and a little more working out. I gave up meats like: chicken, beef, turkey and pork about a year ago, and I feel so much better. I am what they call a pescatarian. I am basically a vegetarian but will eat fish and seafood.

As for now…I am working with a personal trainer, and he is relentless which, quite frankly, is what I need. The work-outs are intense and twice a day, for right now. See, I realize I need to do an out-of-the-ordinary routine right now because I want to shed my unwanted pounds. Plus, I'm following a very strict diet, consisting of very few carbs, very little oil/fats, LOTS of veggies and fish. This new diet my trainer has me following hasn't been that difficult for me because of my previous elimination of meat.

Through a lot of mental preparation, eating a strict diet (for now) and exercise, I'm on track to lose even more weight, AND I'm excited about it!

The only challenging part of the diet is the preparation, but there's preparation with any successful diet. I'm not going to eat the diet I'm on right now forever, but for now, it is specifically designed to pull fat from my fat storage. And, that is what I need.

I'm already feeling better, and I've dropped some weight. I don't know exactly how much, but I will be keeping you posted.

I had gotten to a point where I was tired of being tired and tired of looking at myself in the mirror. I KNOW I feel better and function better when I'm following a work-out routine. In my business, I get a lot of comments; while most of them are nice, I still get the rude comments (sometimes not intended to be rude but nonetheless are) about my weight. It bothers me. This is something in my control, so I'm taking charge.

Admittedly, I have quite a few personal issues with my weight, but I ready to put the kibosh on them. I know this is going to be about finding the balance, and balance is really hard for me. I am determined to continue on my weight loss journey.

I have also realized, my outside doesn't match how I see myself in my mind. When I see a picture, I'm thinking, "Who is that? And what have you done with Carrie?" I LOVE the outdoors, being outdoors and doing most anything outside makes me happy. I just want to be able to do these things with less effort and weight!

I am just two years younger than when my grandfather passed away from a heart condition/defect.

I one day hope to have a family and want to pass on healthy eating and healthy living to them.

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